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Announcement

The Chag Blog will undergo full renovation within the next coming days. The purpose for this renovation is to recreate this blog to a much more related site for the people involved.

Format, title and some of the contents will be removed. Some postings will be transferred and some will remain. Possibly some of which will be archived.

Please stand by as this blog site will be reborn.

Chag and the Movies

Last month was my anti-love month. But lately, I was able to move on and turn upside down as I've gotten myself indulged on watching romantic movies. Reason why? I love being carried away. LOL.

And finding myself being carried away all the time by these romantic movies, I've decided to list down these movies which lines got me swept off my feet. And how is this related to the Chag People? Let me tell you how and to whom I relate the quotes I've listed down.

Let's begin from here.

10. Love and Other Drugs

"Sometimes the things you want the most don't happen and what you least expect happens. I don't know - you meet thousands of people and none of them really touch you. And then you meet that one person and your life is changed. I've never known anyone who actually believe that I was enough until I met you. And then you made me believe it too. " - Jamie Randall, Love and other drugs (2010)

This relates to: Rochelle

Rochelle's personality when it comes to love is that she tends to be addicted to this one person whom she wants to be with. She may elope with him and do adventurous things and she would be brave enough to risk things to keep the relationship work. In search for love, she opens out herself to all of the fishes in the sea. But as I see from the future, no matter how many choices there is, there will be this one person who will definitely take her breath away and it'll come in a time when she least expect it.

9. The Proposal

"Three days ago, I loathed you. I used to dream about you getting hit by a cab. Then we had our little adventure up in Alaska and things started to changed. Things changed when we kissed. And when you told me about your tattoo. Even when you checked me out when we were naked. But I didn't realize any of this, until I was standing alone... in a barn... wifeless. Now, you could imagine my disappointment when it suddenly dawned on me that the woman I love is about to be kicked out of the country. So Margaret, marry me, because I'd like to date you." Andrew Paxton, The Proposal (2009)

This relates to: Charisse

Charisse used to be this one person who has a great defense mechanism against love. But it came to her in no time that all her beliefs were replaced with the possibility of a happy ever after by being with someone and loving him. Of all the high expectations from other people, she chose to live a life as how she see it righteous for her and stood up against her decision. She is now happily married to her husband and is now a mother of her own baby girl.

8. My Amnesia Girl

"Ipikit mo ang mga mata mo. Kasi sabi nila, kapag nakapikit ka, dun mo malalaman ang totoo mong nararamdaman. Kung pwede lang mawala lahat ng kasalan sa pamamagitan ng yakap, habang buhay kitang yayakapin." - Apollo, My Amnesia Girl (2010)

This relates to: Roselyn

Roselyn fell in love to a guy from the past whom they both never had the chance to express their feelings to each other. Years after, they met again. Despite of wanting to pursue what has not been yet fulfilled relationship, chances and fate always takes away this opportunity. She then chose to engage into relationships that will make her happy and satisfied. And no matter how much pain and hurtful things are, she chose to accept what is given to her at this time. And all she could do is hold on to the man she loves, hug and kiss him as if tomorrow will no longer be a forever after.

7. Titanic

“Winning that ticket, Rose, was the best thing that ever happened to me. It brought me to you. You must do me this honor, Rose. Promise me you’ll survive. That you won’t give up, no matter what happens, no matter how hopeless. Promise me now, Rose, and never let go of that promise.” - Jack Dawson, Titanic (1997)

This relates to: Michael

All of his life, Michael had focused on achieving things and fulfilling his goals in life. But of all the success and rewarding career he's got today, he also chose to let go a girl whom he had always loved even while coming across the borders of different countries. For now, even looking from a far, he still wishes her all the happiness in life.

6. Brokeback Mountain

"Tell you what, we coulda had a good life together! Fuckin' real good life! Had us a place of our own. But you didn't want it, Ennis! So what we got now is Brokeback Mountain! Everything's built on that! That's all we got, boy, fuckin' all. So I hope you know that, even if you don't never know the rest! You count the damn few times we have been together in nearly twenty years and you measure the short fucking leash you keep me on - and then you ask me about Mexico and tell me you'll kill me for needing somethin' I don't hardly never get. You have no idea how bad it gets! I'm not you. I can't make it on a coupla high-altitude fucks once or twice a year! You are too much for me Ennis, you sonofawhoreson bitch! I wish I knew how to quit you." - Jack Twist, Brokeback Mountain (2005)

This relates to: Jeanal

When Jeanal falls in love, she tends to do the stupidest things a girl could ever do even though she perfectly knows how great the consequences are. This movie relates to her as if she is Jack Twist wanting to quit Ennis but cannot do so. She's trying her hardest to find another way to quit this guy, but unfortunately, she just can't stop and still continues to see them. And God knows when she will ever get to learn.

5. 50 First Dates

"You erased me from your memories because you thought you were holding me back from having a full and happy life. But you made a mistake. Being with you is the only way I could have a full and happy life. You're the girl of my dreams. And apparently, I'm the man of yours." - Henry Roth, 50 First Dates (2004)

This relates to: Joseph

The movie doesn't exactly relate to Joseph as this will be totally farfetched to how he would ever love a girl. I could say that the only reason to relate this movie to him is because he somehow resembled to Adam Sandler's personality as Henry Roth in this movie: He is the ladies' man and quitting on girls would be as simple as jumping out on the water and pretend to be a secret agent, then never show up to her again. As to falling in love for real? God also knows when.

4. One More Chance

"I want my heart to stop breaking, sana pag naging tayo na ulit, kaya na kitang mahalin ng buong buo. na walang halong takot kung masaktan man tayo ulit."- Popoy, One more Chance (2007)

This relates to: Kristine

This movie entirely relates to how wonderful Kristine's love story is. Every line, every aspect, and every character seemed to be a depiction of the real people in her life. But this movie only relates to her with one person whom she fell in love way back in college and then met again to be together today just like how John Lloyd returned from Qatar to get back to Bea Alonzo after 2 years. But on her part, he returned to her after 6 years.

3. City of Angels

"I would rather have had one breath of her hair, one kiss from her mouth, one touch of her hand, than eternity without it."- Seth, City of Angels (1998).

This relates to: Cacy

Cacy now lives a happy life with the new phase of his life as a future husband and father. But looking back, he used to fall in love to people who always ignored his efforts and feelings as if he was just a wall to be passed on. The movie relates to his previous personality as he used to have dreams of being with certain people he liked but he never had the chance to express how sincere he had been.

2. If Only

"I have to tell you this and you need to hear it. I loved you since I met you, but I wouldn't allow myself to truly feel it until today. I was always thinking ahead, making decisions soaked with fear. Today, because of you - what I learned from you; every choice I made was different and my life has completely changed. And I've learned that if you do that, then you're living your life fully. It doesn't matter if you have five minutes or fifty years. Samantha if not for today, if not for you, I would never have known love at all. So thank you for being the person who taught me to love, and to be love." - Ian Wyndham, If Only (2004)

This relates to: Art

Art had never had a girlfriend from his younger years until he went to college and met a wonderful girl whom he never realized would taught him how great it is to fall in love. The movie relates to him being an ideal type of person: well mannered, smart, funny and has a stable family background just like Ian Wyndham. But beyond that is a girl whom he learned the appreciation of love.

1. The Notebook

"Well that's what we do, we fight. You tell me when I am being an arrogant son of a bitch and I tell you when you are a pain in the ass. Which you are, 99% of the time. I'm not afraid to hurt your feelings. You have like a 2 second rebound rate, then you're back doing the next pain-in-the-ass thing. So it's not gonna be easy. It's gonna be really hard. We're gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, for ever, you and me, every day. Will you do something for me, please? Just picture your life for me? 30 years from now, 40 years from now? What's it look like? If it's with him, go. Go! I lost you once, I think I can do it again. If I thought that's what you really wanted. But don't you take the easy way out." Noah Calhun, The Notebook (2004)

This relates to: Majoh

This movie relates a lot to Majoh's previous relationship as how Allie and Noah depicted a young love-hate relationship when they were younger. All the fighting, drama and violence were a bit similar along with the 2-minutes-after make out one the fight is over. But aside from that, the movie relates to Majoh as to how a relationship will work out for her: that no matter how bad she could be, the guy she loves would stand up for her because he loves her and he will never turn his back on her no matter what happens.

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But above all the relationship of the Chag pipz to the movies listed above, the reason why I wanted to post this list is because I love collecting the movie quotes and reading it over and over again.

If you're in love, out of love or wanting to be in love, try to read at least one of the quotes. It'll sure feed an emotional need for the day.




Photos from: The Notebook (Chron.com), My Amnesia Girl (Filipinomovies.com), Love and other drugs (Filmofilia.com), The Proposal (Grouchreviews.com), Titanic (Moviemobsters.com), 50 First dates (Reelingreviews.com), Brokeback Mountain (Senseofcinema.com), City of angels (Theamandasite.com), One more chance and If only (tumblr.com).

A Heart's Night... Part 2

"Don't ask me.
You're the one who asked me on a date.
You should know where to take me."

"You're as beautiful as they are." He made me feel at ease with those last words he just told me.

Still hesitant, I had to accept the flowers. And I still couldn't imagine myself being in a date with a guy, as a couple and with a bouquet of flowers.

This is effin' ridiculous. Nabanggit ko na lang sa sarili ko.

But then again, It would be very harsh of me to just reject him like that. At kahit papano, kahit uncomfortable para sakin, I had to accept the flowers. Ayoko rin namang sirain ang araw na toh' kahit na para sakin, Valetine's day is just one big heck of a joke.

"So? shall we?" He asked me. I nodded and followed him.

Lumalalim na ang gabi. Dumadami na rin ang couples sa paligid. Lalo akong naiilang but I'm trying me best efforts to be very OK and sweet to him. I'm trying to make myself romantic. Just so I could relate to him.

Palakad lakad lang kami. Paikot ikot sa buong area. Nagkkwentuhan pa rin kami and just merely enjoying the place. Napansin pa naming may free concert si John Ford Coley, though medyo konti ang nanonood, ayos na rin.

Out of nowhere, biglaan pa kaming tinapatan ng isang lalaking may hawak na malaking Sony HDC-1400R HD portable studio camera. Itinutok niya sa amin ang camera at inilawan pa kami. Yun pala, kinukunan kami ng crew ni Gretchen Malalad para sa news report niya. (Kung nanoood kayo ng balita ng madaling araw, malamang nakita nyo kami.)

Nagdecide na kaming kumain since gumagabi na. Nagpaikot-ikot kami sa buong area para humanap ng restaurant na masarap kainan. Sa dami ng choices, parang hindi na rin niya alam kung saan ako dadalhin.

Dito, nagsimula nakong mainis.

Napansin niyang hindi na maganda ang mood ko. Kaya para lang mapakain na niya ko, pumili na siya ng malapit na restaurant sa paligid.

"Ano? Dito na lang tayo?" Tanong niya sakin.

"Ewan ko sayo. Don't ask me. You're the one who asked me on a date. You should know where to take me." Naiinis ko siyang nilitanyahan.

Alam kong hindi na rin siya comfortable since inaatake na siya ng Dyspepsia. Pinili na naming kumain sa Stackers Burger Cafe. Sa puntong ito, medyo irritable nako dahil ramdam ko na rin naman ang pagod sa paikot ikot lang na lakad namin thinking na nanggaling pako sa trabaho.

Medyo gumagabi na rin naman noon kaya hindi na rin namin maiwasang madaliin ang "romantic" date sana namin. Ang backfire pa, medyo mabagal ang service ng crew dahil na rin sa dami ng tao.

He ordered chicken while I ordered burger. It turned out to be a casual dining experience for both of us. Afterwards, we've both decided to go home. We took a cab going home to our apartments. Epic fail pa nga ang taxi ride namin pauwi dahil nagkamali ng nilusutang kalye yung taxing sinasakyan namin.

I got home having the three fuschia pink roses with me. But before the night ended, he confessed to me that during the time he was offering me the flowers, people were staring at him. Napahiya daw siya though OK lang daw sa kanya because he fully understands how I feel.

Ako naman ang na-frustrate.

I guess I've been a bit harsh about how I over-reacted. It's Valentine's day. People give each other flowers. It doesn't have to be romantic at all. Sheesh, I've just been a bit bitchy.

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It was our first Valentine's as a couple.. again. I guess the general rating as to how it ended that day will be a total "It sucked" day. Hindi yun dahil lang sa hindi siya prepared or dahil maraming failure sa date namin.

I guess the reason why it wasn't-so-romantic is because we both sucked at being romantic. He tried to do efforts thinking as if this or that is enough. I refused to cooperate. I refused to appreaciate and incorporate myself with anything happening that day. I have declined allowing myself to be expressive because I have been afraid to give more and receive less. For that, the words are "afraid-not-meeting-the-expectations".

On his part, I could say that it is pretty obvious that he had no plans. That he didn't even thought of doing anything special for us on that day. He had to chose to just let it pass... like any other couple celebrating the same day. Pero sabi ko nga, hindi ibig sabihin na napuna ko yung mga bagay na yun eh hindi ako masaya.

Naging masaya ako. I just never thought that it is how our Valentine's day would end up. I was sort fo expecting more... sana.

But like a popular line, I can just always say "It's Epic Fail."

On the other side, kahit frustrated ako, I feel so much guilty that I acted that way. In this case, (in which I know he's contantly checking my blog for updates), I'd like to let him know that I'm sorry.

I don't intend for it to happen. At the same time, I'd like to say "Thank you" to him, for trying his very best to make that day work out. It may not be the best, but I appreciate the wonderful experience.

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A Heart's Night at Eastwood City

"Did you get my point?" I asked him.
"I totally get what you mean.
You're just trying to make it sound nice, kaya ka nahihirapan."
He said.

This is kind of a bit late to tell.

But I guess there is just no point in keeping it anyway and it definitely sounded bizarre for anyone engaged in a romantic relationship. Specially for a woman.

This is entry of my thoughts regarding Valentine's Day and why I highly believe that men finds this day threatening to their lives. But before I give my explanations, let me tell a story about something that happened on Feb. 14:

I just got out of the office. Kagaya ng dati, naglalakad nako papunta sa terminal ng bus para sumakay pauwi. I saw him coming from afar.

Kinakabahan ako. Hindi ko alam kung anong magiging reaction ko kung sakaling magbigay siya ng roses o salubungin niya ako ng isang surprise.

Nagkalapit na kami. Like the usual, he was just carrying his bag, wearing a T-shirt and pants as if he just got out of the school. Parang normal na araw lang. And to my disappointment, wala naman akong nakitang kahit anong bitbit niya. Walang roses. Walang box of chocolates.

OK. So wala talaga siyang plano. I thought.

"Hey", bati niya sakin.

"O tara, uwi na tayo." Niyaya ko na siya. Pero deep inside nandun na ang disappointment.

"Tara, let's go to Eastwood city." Ako naman ang niyaya niya.

"Ha? Bakit?" Tinanong ko naman siya.

"Wala. It's Valentine's day and I'd like to ask you out on a date. Will you go out with me on a date?" Niyaya ulit niya ko.

"Sure ka? I mean... the money. Tsaka bakit?" Makulit nako. Hindi ko kasi alam kung anong reaction ang ibibigay ko sa kanya.

"Kasi nga it's Valentine's day. And I'd like to ask my beautiful girlfriend out on date. Will you go out with me?" He was patient on convincing me.

I stared at him indifferently, as if he was making a ridiculous move.

"O? Bakit parang indifferent ka?" He asked me.

"Hindi lang ako sanay. I'm just used to not celebrating this day. Hindi ako comfortable na makit ang sarili ko na may kadate pag ganitong okasyon." I explained to him.

"Ganun. O sige kung hindi ka kumportable, edi wag na lang siguro. Uwi na lang siguro tayo. Ayoko namang yayain kita tapos ayaw mo naman. Hindi ka kumportable." He said.

"I'll be fine. It's just that I need a few minutes to get used to this. I'll explain to you later. Hindi naman ibig sabihin nito ayokong lumabas tayo eh. I'll be fine." I assured him.

"Sure ka ha? Sige, lets just wait for a taxi." He then looked around and waved to taxi.

We took the ride going to Eastwood city and arrived there at around 5:30 PM. Inconvenient na ang pakiramdam ko. Nasa taxi pa lang kami, ayoko nang tumingin sa paligid ko. Lalo na, when we got to the mall.

Unang sumalubong samin ang vendor ng mga flowers. And I just can't seem to look at them. I was still at this state while he comfortably holds my hand as we stroll around the mall.

Patingin tingin lang muna. Paikot ikot. Then we've decided to transfer to the other side of the mall just close to the building. Nagkkwentuhan naman kami. I just really feel uncomfortable and I'm professionally hiding it from him.

Nagsisimula nakong makakita ng maraming couple sa paligid. Maraming guys na ang dumadaan na may malalaking bitbit na bouquet of flowers and roses. Marami rami na ring couples ang kasabay naming umiikot at nagsstroll sa mall. Dahil diyan, lalo na akong nagsimulang mapraning.

We both got hungry so we've decided to have a light snack since it was still too early to have dinner. We ended up having hotdogs and sat at one of the nearby benches.

Dito nako nagsimulang magexplain.

"Here's the thing. I'm just not used to celebrating Valentine's day. For me, it's just like one of the usual days. People are just making a big deal out of it." I started.

"So ibig sabihin, you don't find anything special going on this day? I mean, etong date natin parang walang special?" He threw me his first question.

"I do find it special. Special kasi, this is our first time together in this place. And this is something we always enjoy. Discovering new places, eating out on new restaurants, and just having fun." I said. "I've always enjoyed company with you. I imagine this date like one of the dates we would usually have."

"So wala ngang special? Kasi sabi mo it's like the usual dates we always have." Nagsisimula na siyang mangulit.

"It is special kasi bagong place. I guess I'm just shrugging off the thought that there has to be romance when I know there will never be something romantic that will happen. But even if there are no romantic things, it doesn't mean I won't enjoy it." Ako naman ang nagsisimula nang mag-explain.

"So it appears na fault ko yun...." He wasn't able to finish because I had to say something.

"No, I'm not saying that it is your fault. There is no one having fault on how I see this date. I just really want to shrug the thought off my head. I don't want to feel there should be something romantic that must happen tonight." I'm explaining again.

"Why do you feel that way?" Tuloy lang siya sa pagtatanong.

"Kasi, I tend to stereotype men when it comes to Valentine's day. Parang most men would do something different for their girlfriends specially during this time of the year. I mean different like surprises or something romantic like the girl will never ever forget. It's something unrealistic and I know will never happen to me. I tend to feel bitter and miserable kapag naiisip kong never ko mararanasan yun while there are special girls who deserves to experience those. I am not that special so it would not happen at anytime in my life." Hindi ko pa kumpletong explanation.

"You are special to me. Because you're my girlfriend." He said.

"I know. But, here's the thing. Para lang tong A Christmas Carol Story. There was a person who hated Christmas and is full of hatred and anger. He hated anything representing the festivity. Parang ganun lang ako pero in a different way. I'm OK celebrating Valentine's day. It's just that I don't want to incorporate myself into being included in those who celebrate with romance. I have always celebrated this day with my family and friends. But not with a guy or as a couple. I've been that way ever since and I'm used to it." Dagdag ko pa sa malabong explanasyon ko.

"OK, I think we're at the same page. Just stop explaining kasi nahihirapan ka na eh." He convinced me. Pero hindi pa pala siya tapos. "I guess I just want to say sorry, that you don't feel anything romantic with this."

At napa-explain na naman ako. "No, don't say sorry. It's not your fault it's because of me. I don't want to feel that today is Valentine's day and I don't want to feel that I should be experiencing something romantic. I'm fine with it. I'm used to it. Did you get my point?"

"I totally get what you mean. You're just trying to make it sound nice, kaya ka nahihirapan." he said.

"I just don't know how to explain it." I sighed.

"So, you don't see anything romantic with our date tonight?" He asked.

"No..." I said in lower voice.

"Ok. I guess we should just stop talking about it. Kasi nahihirapan ka lang din mag-explain." He calmly told me and closed the conversation.

"So shall we stroll around na?" Niyaya ko na siya.

"Sige, kaso I badly need to go to the CR. Wait up for me here." He said.

"OK." I said back as he went away to look for a CR. I just grabbed my phone and put on the headsets. I started browsing through the songs and listened while waiting.

There was something in me telling that he's got plans of doing something. But deep inside, I'm saying "Don't do it. Don't do it. Don't do it."

And then he came back... with a bouquet of roses with him.

Napa-irap ako and I felt devastated. I felt like I made him feel that he should buy me flowers when I actually don't intend to make him look at my explanations that way. I felt desperate. I felt pitiful. I felt mad at him for making me look like I'm a kid crying out so he could buy me what I want. And I totally had to react differently when he gave me the roses.

"Happy Valentine's day Hon." He went down on his knees and handed me the roses.

Devastated and uncomfortable, i did not accepted the roses. I didn't even looked at him and frustratedly said "Bakit ka bumili ng roses? Ayokong tanggapin yan. Ayoko ng bulaklak."

"Bakit naman? These are for you." Inaabot pa rin niya sakin ang roses.

Napadabog ako at iniiwas ko ang sarili ko sa kanya. "Ayokong ng bulaklak. I told you don't do anything like this. I don't want flowers and I don't want to associate myself with Valentine's day."

Disappointed, he said. "Well.. I could always throw the flowers na lang if you don't want them."

"It's just that, why did you have to do it. I didn't want flowers and I told you, I'm shrugging off the romantic thoughts. Hindi ako dapat makareceive ng mga ganito." Naiinis pa rin ako. Pero I can't keep myself that way.

He's trying his best to be gentle to me. "But for me, you deserve them. You're special to me and I'm giving it to you because I love you."

He was just so patient and understanding that just the look from his eyes made me accept the roses. I took it out of his hands and asked him. "Bagay ba sakin toh'? Hindi ako bagay sa flowers eh."

"Of course you are. You're as beautiful as they are." He made me feel at ease.


... to be continued.



- chagadelic gurl -

Happy V-day!

"Today is Valentine's Day. Or, as men like to call it, Extortion day."
~ Jay Leno

Hi guys! Sorry I've been so much busy for a while.

Napadaan nga lang ako eh... on my own blog.

Well, I just dont want to skip this day without having to greet everyone a Happy V-day!

I know, "V" can stand for a lot of meanings. And yes, today is the time of the year when most men feel like its the Judgement day.

Since I really need to run now (I'm stealing away a time here in the office), I might as well just continue with this post within the coming days.

And maybe, I'll be able to squeeze out more thoughts about this day.

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But for now, I'm just leaving this post with a greeting...


Happy V-day Everyone!


...to be continued.



- chagadelic gurl -

First award

Got an award from Yume Land.

The Rules are:

1. Thank and link the person who awarded u this award
2. Share 8 things about yourself
3. Send it forward to 8 bloggers that you've recently discovered
4. Contact those bloggers and tell them about the award

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So, I'm gonna do the following steps.

1. Thank and link the person who awarded u this award

The Chag pipz would like thank Eun Mi for giving us this award. Thanks much! Appreciated it very well.

2. Share 8 things about yourself

a. 12 talaga noon ang miyembro ng Tropang Chag. Kaya lang nabawasan ay dahil nawala ang iba sa sirkulasyon.

b. May real life love team na naganap noon sa amin: Joseph - Majoh, Roselyn - Michael, Charisse - Cacy, Art - Rochelle, and Jeanal - Ernest. Ang iba diyan, tapos na. Iyong iba naman, hindi pa nagaganap at mayroong pinagpipilitang maganap.

c. Dalawa sa miyembro ang walang ka-love team. Bakit kamo? They love singlehood: Kristine and Jamie ...at ang weird naman kung sila mismo ang magiging magka-love team.

d. Kapag nagkikita kita kami, may magseset ng oras nang 6PM. Mayroong dadating ng 8PM... at siya ang pinakamaaga.

e. 50% ng Chag pipz ay Nursing graduates. 40% ng Nursing Chag pipz ay nagtuloy sa pagnunurse. 60% naman ng Nursing Chag pipz ay nagtuloy sa ibang career.

f. Bumaliktad ang sitwasyon noong High school pa kami. Kung sino ang pinakamahirap noon, siya naman ang pinakamayaman ngayon, e.g. Michael, dating walang cellphone at nakikitext lang, ngayon siya na ang may pinakamaraming gadgets; Joseph, dati ring walang cellphone at nakikisingit lang sa piktyuran, ngayon parang brief na lang kung magpalit ng phone.

g. Lahat ng miyembro ng Chag pipz ay may Bachelor's degree - isang bagay na pinagpapasalamat namin dahil wala sa aming kahit sino ang hindi nakagraduate at nagtarantado sa buhay.

h. Lahat ng Chag pipz ay employed. Wala sa amin ang palapangin lang ng magulang.
3. Send it forward to 8 bloggers that you've recently discovered

I'm sharing it to: Halojin, Naj, Patricia, and Pinoy ako Pake Mo

Unfortunately, sila lang ang mga naaalala kong bago kong nadiskubre.

4. Contact those bloggers and tell them about the award

Done!.

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Thanks again Eun Mi.

- chagadelic gurl -

The first and hopefully more

Good morning Chag Blog and Happy First Anniversarry!

Whew! It's been a year since this blog has been created. Yun pa ang mga moments na hindi ko alam kung ano ang isusulat ko. Fortunately, I was able to establish the page kahit madalas na walang sense ang mga entries ko.

If I can remember, the first entry that I have posted in here was about Chag's people Xmas celebration. Kaya ngayong first year anniversarry na ng The Chag Blog, I'd like to again, feature the people behind the creation of this page.



The Chag Pipz (na hindi kumpleto): Kristine, Art, Majoh, Ernest, Rochelle, Jeanal and Cacy



Eto daw ang wacky shot na obviously namang nagpacute lang ang lahat.



Kagaya nang usapan last year, kanya kanyang dala ulit ng contribution. Lahat naman nagdala: Kay Art galing ang Roasted Chicken; Kay Majoh nanggaling ang Siomai; Si Rochelle ang nagdala ng Hotdogs; Kay Ernest naman ang Brownies (na hindi kita sa picture); Kay Kristine ang Lumpiang Shanghai and Fruit Salad; At si Jeanal naman ang nagdala ng sarili niya.



Special mention ang kay Cacy dahil sa kanya galing ang pinakaunique na contribution: Lechong Baboy... made in bread. Pero honestly, kanya yata ang pinakamasarap na dala. Sa tuwing tinitignan ko ito ay hindi ko maiwasang magutom.



Eto ang moment of truth. Kainan na!


Palibhasa may kumukuha ng snap-shot, laging prepared ang Chag Pipz para mag-peace sign at magpacute... kahit kumakain.



Gaya ng dati, tuloy ulit sa inuman pagkatapos ng kainan.



Present pa rin sa inuman ang tira tira sa mga kinain ng dinner. Dito makikita ang effort ni Jeanal na maglabas nang kanyang contribution: ang 4pcs na Butterfingers.



Like the usual, sari saring kwento na naman ang naging batuhan ng usapan habang nagiinuman. Nagumpisa sa panenermon kay Jeanal, papunta sa yayaan ng mga planong gimik sa March, ang isa isang updates sa bawat isa at ang pinakapoborito ng lahat, ang nakakapagpabagabag na kwento ni Art tungkol sa "Dalaw" sa bahay nila.

Pero all in all, it was a happy gathering kahit medyo kulang kami. Sabi nga ni Rochelle pagkatapos ng party, "Nakakamiss sila".

Sana tuloy tuloy na ang ganito. At sana next year kumpleto na kami.

Pero sigurado namang maraming pang mga gatherings ang susunod. Hopefully, matuloy ang planong paulit ulit na sinasabi ni Ernest, "5-6!". And looking forward to one of us proceeding to the next phase of life..

Panibagong challenge na naman for one of the Chag pipz.



We'd like to congratulate Cacy, in advance, for his upcoming baby and his upcoming wedding this year. We will definitely feature these events here. (Hindi ko lang talaga ma-gets kung bakit kailangang meron siyang chocolate sa ngipin.)

Growing up?

Definitely! Dati rati lang kaming magkakasamang nagkokopyahan sa classroom noon, ngayon, panibagong taon na naman. Tatanda na ulit kami at may mga panibagong challenges na naman.

And somehow, it's a happy thought that we kept intact all throughout the years. Medyo magkakalayo, medyo busy, pero OK lang. We try to find time for these events to happen. And hopefully, magtuloy tuloy na ganito kami. Na kahit mga 60 years old na kaming lahat, magtetext pa rin kami (kung uso pa ang texting) para magkita kita.

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The event that started at 8PM ended at 5AM the next day. It ended as we hugged each other and bid goodbye for the day.

After that, all weare looking forward is to get to March. Na sana matuloy ang mga plano for summer.

And Rochelle was right, "Nakakamiss sila... nakakamiss sila agad."



- chagadelic gurl -

Some 2010 last minutes

2011 na.

Bagong taon na. Start na naman ng panibagong adventure ang buhay ng isang tao sa panibagong taon. And its currently the Chag people's year, year of the Rabbit.

Pero bago ako magpatuloy sa panibagong taon na ito. Gusto ko lang munang magbalik tanaw sa iilang activities na ginawa ko bago magtapos ang taon. Kasama na dito ang mga dates namin ni Shyder, at ang iilang precious moments na naganap bagong dumating ang 2011.

Year-ender Payday date



Bago nagtapos ang taon, nakuha naming aliwin ang mga sarili namin sa Ayala Triangle Park. Mabuti na nga lang at naisipan ng mga awtoridad na gawing pasyalan ang Ayala Triangle Park dahil nababawi nito ang dati nitong imahe na tambayan ng mga Makati Kemberlu-ers.


We'de decided to eat at Chicken Bon Chon.


Shyder ordered theire famous dishes: Chicken


It was weird at some point: December 17, 2010 and we were given Number 17 for the food number.


I ordered 2pcs Chicken with rice and iced tea with an original flavoring. Shyder ordered Chicken meat with spicy flavoring plus a coke. Funny, when he was asked about the flavor of his chicken at sinagot niyang spicy, tinanong siya ulit nung waiter. "Sure kayo sir?".

And that was when he found out na spicy talaga kung spicy yung chicken. Halos masunog ang dila ni Shyder pero, sulit naman. Sabi ko nga "You get what you pay for." He agreed.


This is my Chicken. :)


And I can't help but take a picture of it.


Here's to end a payday date: Cup of Tiramisu Gelati from Fiorgelato

At hindi pa actually nagtatapos yun dun. We went to Glorietta to buy some DVD's. Shyder really loves these two so we really had to find it hardly at some record stores.


We watched it that night, after getting home from Ayala Triangle Park.

Next stop: Sizzlers in Greenhills Shopping Center. December 18, 2010



It wasn't really a date. Isa lang ito sa mga napagkatuwaan naming kainan dahil gutom na gutom kami and unfortunately, natapos na ang promotional sale ng Brother's Burger na ginanap nung December 17.

I ordered Chicken Barbeque, while Shyder ordered T-bone Steak.

It was a fun date, while shopping for gifts, losing patience on the volume of people in the mall, and the non-stop "Wala na bang bawas toh?".

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December 23, Few nights before Christmas
I guess what made my holiday special too is that on the night of 23rd, last day sa office, Shyder gave me a gift.

Funny ang story, he told me that he had plans for that night. Inom daw with officemates. I told him I had plans too, but I actually went to the mall to buy him a gift.

I went to Greenhills Shopping center to buy some last minute gifts. Including his' at Spoofs LTD.


When I arrived home, he welcomed me with a pint of Coffee with hazelnut icecream from Selecta. Habang sabay kaming kumakain ng ice cream, he started saying:

"Sino kaya ang magreregalo sakin?"

Sabay banat ko naman, "Ako nga hindi na nageexpect eh."

He stood up, went to the cabinets and said, "Ah ganun." He took out a gift wrapped in blue paper and said, "Merry Christmas!"

I was surprised, though medyo nahulaan ko nang bibigyan nya ko ng gift. I was surprised to see a Paperbag by Shirts.ph.

Pinaka-ikinatuwa ko dun is gumawa talaga siya ng effort to go to Eastwood city para lang bumili ng shirt sa main branch. He had to do a lot of efforts to lie to me and said na may gimik sila ng officemates niya, yun pala, he planned everything to buy me a gift. Including the lies...

And thing is, I loved it.


He bought me a purple shirt from Shirts.Ph with a Koala saying "Pahug!", while I bought him "Resident Epal" from The T-Shirt Project, a Spoofs Ltd. design.

Sabi niya, yun daw ang napili niya kasi lagi ko daw yun sinasabi sa kanya. Ako naman, I chose the shirt for him kasi we are so indulged into playing the "Resident Evil 4" with his PS2. Kaya yun ang nakita kong pinakarelated sa kanya.

But anyways, I had a happy holidays... though with some last minute updates.

May susunod pakong holiday last minute gimmick.

Abangan nyo na lang. :)


- chagadelic gurl -

What a wonderful world!

"Christmas waves a magic wand over this world, and behold, everything is softer and more beautiful. " ~Norman Vincent Peale

Today is our last day in the office within the week.

Bukas ng gabi, Pasko na. And I'm starting to feel this little excitement in me. Para akong batang excited sa gift ng ninong at ninang ko. Para akong batang iniimagine na kung magkano ang mapapaskuhan ko. And I'm glad, this time of the year, I felt the Christmas presence.

Last year was pretty much unlikely dahil nasa trabaho ako.

December 24th. My shift back then was 7PM to 6AM. At nasa Manila pako nanggaling nun because I was previously renting.

Like the usual, I woke up at 4PM to get myself ready for work. Sabi ko pa sa sarili ko, tanggap kong hindi ako magpapasko sa bahay. "At least, tonight will be a double pay plus the night differential will be a glam!"

I went out of the room to go to the CR. Narealize kong parang haunted ang dorm dahil ako na lang pala ang tao sa fourth floor. Ate Grace, the dorm's landlady, and her family were the only people left in the building and they weren't even in the fourth floor.

So I took a bath. Dressed myself up. And left the dormitory to go to work. Iniisip ko kasi, traffic ang aabutan ko kaya inagahan ko ang alis. I left at about 5:30PM.

Nagulat na lang ako sa naabutan ko. Walang tao sa kalsada. I felt this sudden sadness because I really wanted to be with my family. But I had to shrug the feeling away. Dahil naisip ko, kung magpapaapekto ako. Lalo lang akong malulungkot and I won't even be working for an 8 hour shift. I will be working for 11HOURS! ... and its definitely lame.

When I got to the office. Nagulat akong marami pa rin pa lang taong hindi magpapaskong kasama ang mga pamilya nila. Maraming may shift nung gabing yon. And siguro, isa sa mga nagpasaya sakin that night is the 'almost unlimited food'.

Napagkasunduan kasi ng mga tao sa office namin noon na magchip-in na lang ng pagkain. At least, even being in the office still, we will all dig in to yummy desserts, pansit malabon and numerous selections of other scrumptious dishes. Plus! my freebie!. May pinamigay pang pagkain ang office namin para sa lahat.

It was almost 12AM when I checked the time on the Avaya phone. Wala kong call. Kinakabahan nako. Eto na nga, nagkacall ako. Mexicana airlines. Buti na lang.

"Thank you for calling. My name is *******. How may I help you today?" Nag-opening spiel na nga ang lola nyo'.

Sumagot naman ang nasa kabilang linya. Can't even remember what the problem is pero ang natatandaan ko, babae ang nakausap ko.

"Merry Christmas!!!" May sumigaw sa kabilang spine ng mga stations. At nagpalakpakan ang mga tao sa paligid ko.

Leche, eto na nga. Sabi ko sa sarili ko.

Ok pako. Ok pako. Binati ako ng dalawang tao sa side ko. Niyakap pako nung isa. Bumati na rin ako ng 'Merry Christmas'. At hindi ko na nga po napigilan.

Nageexplain pa yung kausap ko sa kabilang linya. At habang nakamute ako, lumuluha na ang lola nyo' ng patago. Hindi ko kinekeri ang lungkot. Lumabas na nga yung pilit kong pagsusuppress sa kalungkutan kong hindi ko kasama ang pamilya ko.

Di-nrop ko yung call. Kahit makita pako ng QA. Kahit nagsasalita pa yung kausap ko.

Nagpalit ako ng status sa Avaya. Tumakbo ako ng CR. At dun ako nagiiyak ng bonggang bongga.

First time kong hindi kasama ang pamilya ko.First time kong hindi makakapagsimba sa church namin ng anticipated mass ng 24th. First time din ang noche buena namin na wala na si papa. At first time din silang magpapasko sa bahay na wala ako.

Nakakalungkot isipin. Kaya idinaan ko na lang sa iyak.

Pero hindi nagtagal ang session ko sa banyo. Bumalik na rin ako sa desk ko at itinuloy ang trabaho. Maya maya lang, nagtawag na yung iba na pwede nang kumain. Idinaan ko na lang ang frustrations ko sa pagiisip kung ano ang uunahin kong kainin.

Natapos rin ang buong gabi ko. Natapos ang pagdadalamhati ko at umuwi na rin ako samin.

Malungkot pa rin nga lang ng konti. Paskong pasko, walang handa. Naubos na daw kagabi. Wala rin kaming bisita. At ang pinakamasaklap dun, wala akong pera. Yung mga natitira kongn barya, ipinamigay ko pa sa mga namamasko.

Idinaan ko na lang sa tulog.

Bumawi ako nung kinagabihan, nagkayayaan na kami nina VG at HG na maginuman. Kahit papano, sumaya naman ang pasko ko. Nagdala din ng pizza ang jowa ng kapatid ko kaya kahit papaano, nairaos namin ang araw mismo ng Pasko.

Ang regret ko lang, feeling ko hindi ko naibigay ang lahat.

Wala akong pera. Walang pagkain sa bahay. Walang bisita.

Hindi Pasko ang itsura ng bahay namin nung gabing yun. Kung wala siguro kaming mga decors, malamang nagmukhang haunted house ang bahay namin.

Kaya ngayong Pasko, sinigurado ko ang lahat. Nakahanda na ang mga regalo. May extra pakong pera para sa mga mamamasko. At higit sa lahat, hindi ako magtitiis na magtrabaho sa office habang nagsasaya ang lahat sa labas.

Kaya, uuwi nako.

Magcecelebrate ako nang isang masaya at masaganang Pasko kasama ang pamilya ko.

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Isa pa,

Ako na lang ang tao dito sa office. At susunod nang uuwi yung mga guard dito samin para isara ang opisina namin at gumimik.

Merry Christmas everyone!



Love,


- chagadelic gurl -

Coffee with Chard

"Men propose marriage primarily because they want the physical, emotional and intellectual companionship of a woman. Men like company." - Lisa Daily from Lifewise.com

I just realized this morning that talking to men gets you the answers that you've always wanting to ask your guy.

And just early this morning, I've had a conversation with Chard, one of my officemates.

I went to the pantry area to get myself a cup of coffee. Naabutan kong nandun din si Chard and making himself a cup of coffee too. Niyaya niya akong sabayan siya.

I'm not used to staying longer minutes in the pantry since I have loads of work in the morning. I just usually get myself a cup of coffee then head back towards my desk. But this morning, Chard insisted me on joining him in the pantry area. So sige, I gave it a try.

Si Chard ang isa sa mga pinakakilala ng lahat. Bukod sa lagi siyang nasa guard's area, he really makes sure that he greets everybody a "good morning". And so far, I did not expected that talking to him this morning would ease my frustrations.

I poured hot water on my cup. Naupo ako sa isa sa mga chairs sa dining area sa pantry. Naupo naman siya sa harap ko.

Kwentuhan. Kwentuhan. Kwentuhan.

Nauwi ang usapan sa rEl@sYoN...

Naikwento niya sakin ang karanasan niya sa mga nakarelasyon niya. Sa mga naging girlfriend niyang niloko niya, sa mga naging girlfriend niyang minahal niya, at sa mga naging girlfriend niyang hindi niya maintindihan kung paanong naging sila. Naikwento niya rin sakin ang pagiging tatay niya sa isang batang nagmula sa babaeng hindi naman niya talaga karelasyon. At dahil diyan, napakwento na rin ako.

Naikwento ko ang tungkol sa Ex ko. Naikwento ko ang tungkol sa kung papaano kaming naghiwalay. Naikwento kong ikakasal na ang ex ko. At a short period of time, ikakasal na siya. And I'm a bit bothered about it.

"Wala naman talaga akong pakeelam kung ikakasal na siya. Hindi ko lang maintindihan kung bakit apektado pa rin ako ah hindi ko naman na siya mahal." I told him.

"Sabi pa ng bestfriends ko, possible din daw na kaya siya ikakasal eh dahil may nangyari. Within a span of a year, they decided to get married. Masyadong mabilis." I added.

Sumagot naman si Chard. "Possible ngang may dahilan. Dalawang bagay lang yan. It's either nabuntis niya yung girl, o di kaya, naisip niyang ayaw niyang mangyari sa kanya ang ginawa niya sayo. Kasi kung gawain niya, talagang matatakot siya sa karma. Natatakot siyang iwan din siya ng biglaan kasi gawain niya. Kaya feeling ko, kaya siya nagdecide magpakasal dun sa girl eh para mai-secure na yung gurl. Kumbaga, mawawalan na siya ng rights na manlalaki kasi kasal na. Gusto nitong lalaki ng security kasi palibhasa, gawain niyang mangiwan. Ayaw din niyang iwanan siya."

Somehow, mejo nabawasan ang tanong ko about my ex. But I'm still bothered.

Medyo sinermonan pako ni Chard, "Wag mo na dapat pang problemahin kung masaya sila o hindi. Ang importante, dapat ikaw ang masaya."

I breathed deeply.

Maiksi lang ang pagtambay ko sa pantry with Chard. But it sort of lessen up my frustrations. Kahit papano kasi, kahit hindi masyadong malinaw, nasagot ang mga tanong ko on my why the heck is my Ex getting married.

I guess about my Ex, who left me because of another girl whom he just met in the chatroom, I am frustrated that he left me a year ago and chose not to communicate and end things up in a well manner. But I'm also glad that he left me because if he didn't, I would realize how wonderful life is around me.

And that he was just another guy, came into my life and taught me lessons.

Even if he is indeed a big effin pervert and a major jerk, I guess once in our lives we get to meet people like this. They will either ruin you or make you stronger. In my case, It made me stronger. And with all the hurt and the pain he left me, I still am thankful and grateful that at some point in my life, fate had to remind me to grow up.

Do I still love my ex?

No not anymore. In fact, I wish him the happiness that he deserves. I already am happy with myself and I'll get more happiness with my present life and loving relationships.

As of the present time, I know that he is getting married anytime soon.

And I guess, kung tama nga ang assumption ni Chard. Then possibly, he doesn't know what he's doing. He just simply wanted to have someone by his side and lock her up to himself. But it isn't all about because he wanted to build a family with her, or to grow old with her. It is just all about being secured that someone is stuck in his life. But if things do not go his way, he will probably look for another wife. And this girl he's marrying, she definitely will be devastated.

I believe that marriage is more than just sex, or love, or companionship. Like what Shyder has always been telling me, it is all about maturity. It is all about accepting the next phase of life: building your own family with kids, a home and providing them with their needs. It isn't about just the two of you alone. Its more complex than just securing someone in your life.

Marriage means that you also have to accept him in his entirety. No matter how stupid he gets. No matter how incapable he is in maintaining a well-cleaned home. And no matter how idiotic life would be with him. You have to remember, you married him. And again, marrying someone doesn't him you're just marrying his personality. It meant marrying his humanity.

Oh well, I guess Chard really impacted my day.



- chagadelic gurl -

Sometimes Love Just Ain't Enough

"But there's a danger in loving somebody too much, and it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust. There's a reason why people don't stay where they are. Baby, sometimes, love just aint enough. " - Patti Smith

I'm gonna tell a story.

Mababaw lang. Hindi masyadong detalyado. Kaya ko lang naisipang isulat ay dahil sa curiosity kong malaman ang kasagutan sa sitwasyon na ito.

Kasi mahirap. Kahit ako hindi ko alam ang sagot. First time kong mailagay ang sarili ko sa ganitong sitwasyon.

To start off, there is this guy na matagal na niyang kakilala. But the meet up was not the usual friendship na nakasama mo sa school project or nakilala mo sa office nyo'.

She met him through an online chat. They met up, gone to dates and even done pretty little things na unusual sa mag-kaibigan lang. But she was fine with it. He was too. Both of them weren't committed.

It was a fine friendship. Kung minsan may kulitan. Kung minsan may asaran. At kung minsan may dramahan. It involved feelings. It envolved emotions for both of them. But there was no strings attached.

He longed for her everyday. She longed for him everyday too. Nagumpisa sa casual na relationship. Hanggang sa mauwi sa development involving attraction and love.

She didn't expected for it to happen. He didn't too.

They just went all the way until they found themselves attached to each other.

For less than year, they went out on dates. Met up at the mall, watch movies and kiss before the day ends. There was no formal relationship. It was just friendship. He is single. She is too.

Though, within the same year, despite of seeing each other, they still had casual dates outside of their friendship. But the communication is always there and it was fine. He didn't had a problem going out with friends and work but still communicate with her. She is too. She was able to manage her self with the other parts of her life such as work, girl friends and her self.

Until such time that she thought of clarifying her position in his life. She wanted to know why he still hasn't popped the question. "Can we be together?"

They were fine together. They jive really well. They have a lot of things in common and they both enjoy each other's company. He is single. She is too. With all the feelings they have for each other, why isn't he asking her to be with him... to be his girlfriend?

"I don't want to lose you
but I don't want to use you
just to have somebody by my side. I don't want to hate you,
I don't want to take you
but I don't want to be the one to cry.

And that don't really matter to anyone anymore.
But like a fool I keep losing my place
and I keep seeing you walk through that door."

She asked him.

He told her that he can't commit.

She wondered why and asked him the reason.

He couldn't tell her.

She asked him again.

He told her to go. Find someone else better that him. He told her that she has a life... that they aren't meant for each other.

She tried to understand him but he kept shoving her away. She chose to move one.

Until one day, he came back. He consoled her. She listened and kept him back. They were fine again. But the answer as to why they can't have a relationship is still there.

The special friendship went on again. They kep seeing each other. They kept communicating and gone to dates. But in her mind, she kept asking why.

She finally had the courage to ask him. But before that was an intense scenario. They made love with each other. He expressed to him how he feels and she gave herself whole heartedly. After what happened to them, she had no regrets. She admitted, she loves him.

She asked her if he loved her. He answered the question as to why they couldn't be together.

"Now, I could never change you
I don't want to blame you.
Baby, you don't have to take the fall.
Yes, I may have hurt you, but I did not desert you.
Maybe I just want to have it all.

It makes a sound like thunder
it makes me feel like rain.
And like a fool who will never see the truth,
I keep thinking something's gonna change."

He already has a girlfriend. They've been together for eight years now and eh couldn't leave her because she was always trying to kill herself. He desired to be free. But he couldn't take it into his conscience that he will be happy and she will keep killing herself because he left her.

He wanted a peaceful exit. But he coudn't do it yet. He wanted to give this new girl a good start without having to look back. Without people trying to intrude their happy life together.

He just couldn't do it yet.

She just had to cry. She cried every night thinking about it. She wanted him so much. She loves him so much. She believes that no other man can ever take his place. It's just that why can't they be together.

She knew that he loves her too. But like before, all he ever says is move on. "Live your life outside this relationship. You're smart, you're pretty, you don't deserve to be treated this way."

She took his advice. But she couldn't deny that she loves him so much. She wanted him so much that she could kneel down in prayers all day just so they could be together.

But things had to fixed yet. And the only question is... is it still worthy to wait? ... when you're not sure of what you're waiting for?

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Mega english ako.

Hindi pa naman dumudugo ang ilong ko.

Pero yun ang question.

I talked to some of my friends about it. Guy friends that is. They told me:

"It isn't all about love. Kahit mahal mo siya, kung gago naman ang pagtrato niya sayo. Walang sense. Simpleng relasyon, hindi niya maibigay. Anong sense na magstay ka?."

Another friend told me.

"Kung worthy maghintay, depende. Sometimes, Ok din ang maghintay. pero dapat alamin mo kung hanggang kelan ka lang maghihintay."

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Kayo, ano sa palagay nyo?



- chagadelic gurl -





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